the kid who laugh

my life as a 19 year old male is just odd,weird,confusing,distracting and disgusting as it could be.
life right now is like a love hate thing for me. i just can't bear it any longer. if i could feel upset and confused at the same time, that is exactly what i'm feeling right now. i want a new leash of life, away from all of this mess. i walked across a nursery for kids yesterday after class. i stumble upon a group of little kids playing,laughing along with their friends with nothing to worry about. i wish i could go back in time and live as a 5 year old kid. the kid who laugh.